Oh heavenly father my Lord Jesus Christ forgive my ways, and my stupidity. I am lost and so want to be found. Once walked a straight line now I weave all over. I wish I felt strong but I feel as if I am withering away. I need you so much in my life. But cannot sense you no more. It breaks every piece of me. My tears I cry and my heart bleeds for you. I miss you. Forgive me for my ignorance and my blind ways. You say to Love with all of your heart but when I do it gets thrown back crushed.